Latest & Greatest News in My Life
I’m still alive & kicking – well kinda!
Haven’t been around much online lately, real life’s been getting in the way of my cyberlife. I haven’t even logged in to Twitter lately to see what everyone’s been up to & whats going on in the world… I know it’s sacrilegious!!
I managed to get my left and right feet completely confused and missed the bottom step as I walked out of the supermarket & went ‘SPLAT’ like a starfish all over the footpath, groceries everywhere, coke bottles exploding and bread getting squashed. I’m sure it would’ve been a total sight.
According to the incredibly rude and dis-interested Doctor I didn’t manage to break or fracture anything, but the girls don’t agree. My Ankle has swollen up and looks somewhat like a squashed football, turning various shades of purple & blue. If only I had a camera and could show you – It’s kinda pretty in an ugly kind of way.
Anyway I think I may have mentioned a possible new FWB on twitter about a week ago. He’s actually quite sweet and nice, just a shame he doesn’t live closer. I met him online a few months ago, we got along well. He has great taste in music, is laid back and cruisey and there’s no doubt we’d hang out as friends all the time if he lived near by. Anyway a month or so after I met him, long before I could get my act together to go meet him some other woman snapped him up – my timing always sucks!! lol
Now another month or two later she spat him back out all chewed up and broken hearted. Some women fucking piss me off – I know not all relationships work out, but what she did really stinks. Waking up one morning to say ‘I don’t love you anymore’ and then showing him the door. Oh well, her fucking loss I guess.
It’s not the deep seeded kind of connection I felt when I first met -B, but I doubt I’d ever feel quite that way about anyone else (There’s a huge long back story that started when I was 14 that made the whole thing with -B special) yet he makes me smile and laugh and feel somewhat special. But here’s the crux, I don’t want enough of a relationship to call anything committed, yet at the same time I know I’m never going to be able to just have totally anonymous sex with someone I’ve just barely met. Christ after months of fucking -B I never quite managed to let go and be as sexually uninhibited as I actually am, so can’t see it happening in a situation without any kind of emotional investment. Being insecure and having low self esteem coupled with I guess a negative self image can be quite inhibiting to ones sexual freedom.
I won’t be going anywhere for the next week or so due to my ankle & X taking the car just to be spiteful (Yet another massive fight with X last weekend) so I’ve got time to get to know him a little better and maybe even a chance to consult -B. Although I never let go physically with him, I can tell that guy anything, he’s like a rock sometimes. So that’s about it. I busted my ankle and am stuck high & dry & horny, hopefully this situation will resolve itself…..and soon.